I texted him this morning, and got no reply. Not terribly unusual, so I just went and did other things to distract myself. At around noon, I still had nothing. I texted him again, saying that I missed him. Still no reply for anything.
I feel like I’ve fucked up the best thing in my life. He’s my bestfriend. I have no one else to talk to when I’m scared or feel alone, or even when I’m really excited about things. He’s the one I go to. He’s the only one I -want- to go to. I just want him to talk to me, and for everything to go back to being better again. He’s so sweet to me, goes out of his way to make me happy and feel included, and how do I repay him? I act like a high maintenance bitch, who needs to be coddled.
How did I become this person?
I just want him.
My heart hurts.
1:28 PM
26/07/2010
